I have not had an active eating disorder since I was 18 years old. I’m now 21, so that’s a blessing. Back then, I had developed what are called “fear foods”. Fear foods are basically foods that people (whether you have an eating disorder or not) label as being “bad” for you, or are foods you avoid at all costs because they’re too high in sugar, calories, carbs, etc. I didn’t have a label for these foods back in the day, and didn’t even realize I had fear foods until a few months ago. I had convinced myself that these were just foods that I didn’t like, and thought were unappetizing. In reality, some of them I loved but would just tell myself that I didn’t like them in order to avoid them. There are also other foods here that I am not the most fond of, but also had just convinced myself that I hated and avoided at all costs. Some foods I overcame naturally, and some are still lingering that I need to try. I thought it would be fun to take you along the journey with me as I try my fear foods. No foods really scare me at all anymore. I’m in a really great place, but I thought it would be interesting to think back on all the foods that used to scare me and have them.
Send me some of your own fear foods and I’ll try them out as well. I hope that this post inspires and motivates you to try out some of your own fear foods. Eating these will not make you gain a bunch of weight or ruin any progress you’ve made thus far. I know it can be really daunting and scary to have these, but remember that it’s all just food. Food is fuel and food should be enjoyed. Food does not control you nor have power over you. You are strong and beautiful.
To start off our series, I’m hitting you with a double (triple?) whammy.
CHOCOLATE CAKE AND ICE CREAM.
Growing up I had never been the most fond of chocolate. I’ve always liked vanilla better, but chocolate was fine. My eating disorder convinced me that I hated chocolate and couldn’t have it. On my health journey I have actually learned to love dark chocolate and some milk chocolate as well. My eating disorder also convinced me that I hated ice cream, which was a blatant lie because I’ve always loved ice cream
And here are some photos of me enjoying them and living my best life.
I promise I had more than what I am showing. I posted a video of me eating the ice cream on my Tik Tok if you want to see it.
Reminder to not feel guilty for the food that you eat. Every day is a new day. Every meal is a new meal. Fuel your body with nutritious foods that make you feel good but we also need to eat foods that make our soul and heart feel good as well. There is a place in our lives for all kinds of foods. We should not restrict or label things as “bad” or “good”.
I love y’all and I hope you try out a fear food of yours soon too.