It’s my 20th birthday!!!! Woohoo! I’m really excited about today and I’m happy it’s also posting day on here. I hope you enjoy this one!
Disney Itinerary
To celebrate my 20th birthday, my whole family and I went to Disneyland on September 14th. Here is what our day consisted of:
Pixar Pals Parking Structure The Haunted Mansion Thunder Mountain Savi's Workshop
My dad and I made light sabers. I chose purple and he chose blue.
Oga's Cantina Droid Depot
The saddest part of the day was when we all signed up to make droids but only 1/4 of us actually made one. They were out of a lot of parts and so we had to get refunds. I was not about to make a droid that didn’t look like R2D2.
Pinocchio Snow White Bibbidi Bobbidi Boutique
I bought a pair of pink sparkly ears.
Lunch
My family had Rancho Del Zocalo and I had The Golden Horseshoe chicken tenders. I happened to be there when they were having their last show ever. Weird how life works.
We grabbed a Haunted Mansion fast pass Splash Mountain single rider
My dad and I went on this and they were having a lot of trouble with the logs getting stuck. At the end of the ride my log went through fine, but my dad’s got stuck and he had to wait for the fire department to come and get them out.
Star Tours Pumpkin Spice beignets and Midnight Julep Alice in Wonderland Indiana Jones Haunted Mansion Halloween Screams Fireworks Mainstreet Electrical Parade Pirates of the Caribbean Jungle Cruise Buzz Lightyear
My Initial Feelings on Turning 20
Sitting at the dining room table, surrounded by family and twinkly lights, when it hits you. Your stomach drops, your mind races, and a wave of disappointment washes over you. You sit there spacing out, and wondering how this all happened so fast. 20. You’re turning 20 this year.
You fall asleep at night to have constant nightmares of where your life may go and the downfalls you may face. Waking up in the middle of the night to the cool darkness and having to lull yourself back to sleep after losing everything you worked for.
Waking up to start a new day, with your age and expectations constantly on your mind.
At 20 you should be graduating college, becoming a therapist, getting married, buying a house. Do you start intensive skin care to prevent aging? Are you that old? Are you really going to be spending your 20th birthday at Disney?
Already having so many things flooding your life, to feel unsatisfactory to societies standards and feeling the need to pile on more to your schedule.
Finally realizing that 20 is still super young; you still have your whole life ahead of you. You’re not graduating uni this year, you’re not getting married. You’re not buying a house. You are right where you’re supposed to be. 20 sounds like a lot, but it’s going to be okay.
You wake up everyday with those same fears trying to kick down your door, and you constantly have to remind yourself that it’s going to be okay.
It’s going to be okay.
Song Lyrics
I love change
I’ve embraced it
But this I,
I can’t change it
Not knowing what’s coming but knowing whats coming
Is a scary thing for me
These expectations falling from the clouds of my mind
Not reality now
So I just need to stop thinking so hard
I don’t wanna grow up
Someone please make it stop
Cuz I’m holding on to the life I have
Don’t want it to change, we have
One minute, to breathe
One minute, to be
