I Don’t Know What I’m Doing

This is an issue that has come up way too many times. 

 

When I was 13 years old in junior high school, I was so sure I wanted to be a journalist.

I liked writing my own made up stories. I also enjoyed reading young adult novels and collecting books- only if they were in perfect condition. My dream was to eventually make my own magazine all about fashion and beauty.

When I got into high school, I started to realize that I didn’t like writing essays at all. The teachers would assign so many essays and I hated it. I dropped the idea of becoming a journalist and therefore, didn’t know what I’d want to do when I was older.

Around the age of 15, my mom faced me from the passenger seat and said “You should be a psychologist. You’d be really good at it.” I looked at her from the backseat and asked “What’s a psychologist?”

 

After a lot of research and self discovery, I found that this field would fit me nicely. I’m a planner, so I needed to know all of the little details immediately- like what kind of therapist I would be, what age I would focus on helping, and what my emphasis would be.

I took an AP Psych course senior year of high school and it filled my soul with so much joy and happiness. The class wasn’t an easy A- my teacher pushed us and tried to make us thoroughly learn the material, instead of just memorizing it. The teacher was pretty great.

I’m 18 now and I’ve had it figured out since I was 16 years old. I know I want to be a therapist. I have a whole plan of what schools I’m going to attend and how I’m going to get my doctorate, etc.

All of my friends know how passionate I am about psychology because my face lights up whenever I talk about it.

 

I find that I’m really the only one out of my friends who is so sure of what I want, and has a plan.

I want ya’ll to know that it is completely okay to not know what you want to do with your life.

For all I know, my detailed plans could be thrown out the window in a year because I find out I don’t like this field.

I’m unsure of what the future holds, I just know the present.

People come to me and say that they’re such a mess for not knowing their future, that they’re supposed to already know everything.

 

I don’t want you to worry about it too much because we’re all still so young. We have so much time ahead of us. You’ll figure it out.

We all as young adults scramble to figure things out as soon as we can to get a handle on our lives.

I know that the idea of uncertainty and the unknown is scary, but you’re definitely not the only one out there.

Understand that this stage in life is completely normal, and that in time, you’ll figure it all out. Don’t rush yourself. Things happen for a reason. You’ll find your path and hopefully it’s something that sets your soul on fire.

Things will work out the way they’re supposed to. Stay optimistic, have hope, and dream big.

 

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