My blog is all about being 100% genuine about myself, and this is no exception.
2017 has been a pretty good year for me.
The highlights included meeting Taylor, having her like two more of my posts on Tumblr, leaving for college, going to Disneyland 4 times, and ending the year off with a trip to New York. I started this blog and engulfed myself into my love for writing. I even saw Fresh Baked on my last trip to Disneyland.
This may sound all nice. My instagram and most of my blog is about the highlights of my life.
I’ve done a lot of growing in 2017.
I’ve learned that I can’t force myself to love a friend, no matter how hard I try. To trust my gut when I know a friend isn’t truly genuine. I’ve learned that most guys will try to take advantage of you. I’ve learned that sometimes you don’t click with a person, and it’s okay if that’s the case. Some friendships aren’t meant to last forever- they can last for 10 years and then fade suddenly. All you really have is yourself; you can’t depend on others. Having a boyfriend in college is an impossible feat. Even though we’re in college, some people are stuck in high school drama. Stick by your morals and your internal being, don’t cave when people pressure you to change or do something that you know deep down is wrong. Stay genuine, and if people don’t like that, then they can leave. If a boy doesn’t treat you with the respect and admiration you deserve, drop him immediately.
I also lost my cat this year.
On my blog I do try to address my troubles and life lessons and I will continue to do so in 2018.
The issue is that I’ve been depressed and my eating disorder is so strong right now.
This year has been filled with both good and bad. It’s a balance, but overall it was a great year and a huge growing experience.
The New Year is usually focused on trying to change and become a better person. Working towards happiness and health, but for me, it’s not this time around.
I have no intention of recovering right away. I know it’s not healthy, but this is my mind and my choice.
I’m sorry to be negative, but this is my mind.
I want to reach my goal weight, and then once that is done, I will look towards recovery. That is my plan.
So ending 2017 and entering 2018 isn’t very happy and hopeful, but that’s the honest truth.