As I’ve stated in a previous blog post, I’ve come to terms with my mental health.
College is a huge adjustment and it has not been easy in the slightest.
Thus, depression settled in.
Now, it’s my turn to put myself first again and to focus on what makes me happy.
This is the third time now that I’ve had to fix myself, but that’s okay. It happens.
I just have to go back to the basics and really look at the things that bring me happiness in life.
Sometimes you get so caught up in the drama and the changes that you forget about yourself.
So, that said I woke up one morning after my realization and I texted my RA for places I could go to be alone.
He suggested the UCSB lagoon, which I had been to before, but decided to go back this day.
I went at night during sunset and it was so therapeutic.
My view was so beautiful and it reminded me of home.
When I was home, there was this one little park I would go to all of the time whenever I felt sad or off.
The lagoon is my new park.
I needed to find my place. My little area that I could go to to find comfort.
It must be walking distance. It must be beautiful. It must be quiet.
The lagoon fits into all of this criteria.
I sat there for a bit during sunset on some rocks, listening to RED and writing in my journal.
It was refreshing to do this and whenever I’m feeling sad, I will of course go back.
It’s my time to put myself first again.