My friend came to me the other day venting about how none of her friends like Taylor Swift or One Direction anymore- they’ve all grown out of that ‘phase”. Now if anyone knows me at all, they know how much Taylor means to me and I’ve never grown out of that ‘phase’ (and won’t. EVER.). She was texting me telling me how sad it made her and how she felt like she had to hide the fact that she still liked these artists, in fear of being embarrassed and left out.
I’ve felt this way before too.
Throughout my years in school I surrounded myself with other girls who were obsessed with these things as well, so I was never truly alone. Although, when it came to outsiders, I felt quickly judged and almost ashamed of my love.
Near the end of last year I told my boyfriend at the time that I didn’t like One Direction anymore and that it was in the past, and he basically said “well good because no guy likes them and that’d be annoying”. Now at the time I wasn’t completely lying because I had distanced myself from the boys and I didn’t fawn over them anymore, but I can definitely still jam to their music.
So of course in light of my ex boyfriend and I breaking up and trying to find myself again, I learned to be myself.
Theres a quote by Taylor from an interview with Billboard that says: “You know what? If you’re upset and irritated that I’m just being myself, I’m going to be myself more, and I’m having more fun than you so it doesn’t matter.”
This is a quote I would scream in my head when I was learning to accept myself.
I can’t even count the amount of times I have seen the boys live, I have so much merch, I bought all their albums and can still recite every lyric to every song and that is me. I have learned to accept myself and embrace myself. I will not feel ashamed for something I love. You can judge all you want but I am being myself and enjoying myself.
The whole point of this blog post is to show that sometimes we’re all in different stages of our lives. One day my friend might learn this lesson that I learned last year. I hope that she does. It doesn’t feel good to be embarrassed and ashamed. This feeling of being embarrassed and ashamed shouldn’t even be a thing!
Us as humans just need to learn to love ourselves in the end.
I love Star Wars, Taylor Swift, One Direction music, the color pink, coffee, etc.
This is me.
I am tired of being ashamed.
I am me and if anyone wants to judge, then I am going to be me even more.